Dear Friend-

Please believe me when I tell you I'm looking out for you.  I know I can be harsh and rude to her, but she's terrible.  She lies about smoking and drinking and sex to impress people, she dismisses best friends because those lies are more important to her than her friends, and she knows she has you wrapped around her finger.  Do you remember the last time you two were together? How awful she was towards me, spreading all sorts of rumors about "us?" You are one of my best friends, very high on that list in fact, and I don't want to see you waste any time with her.  We're close, and I'd hate to see someone come between what we have, especially someone who is so disrespectful to you and all your friends.  We all love you too much to get into it with her, again, and to see you being used and abused, again.  You might say that I'm jealous of her, or she might say that, but whatever. I'm here for you, and I know what's best for you, and if it comes off as jealousy than so be it.  If you need to believe that the reason I don't like her is because I'm in love with you, than so be it. I can take one for the team.  

So please, PLEASE hear me out.  She's awful to everyone around you, as well as you.  Why would you want to keep that in your life?

Always,
Your bestie that cares

Wow, so I haven't updated in a loooonggg while. My SINCEREST apologies! 

This past week has seemed to go on forever!
Oh, last saturday I started dating The World's Sweetest Guy.(TM)  
No offense to you other fellas, but he totally owns you ALL. 
Also, Wizard ended, and the Places left, so that sucked. To top it off, my cat ran away, my sister's moving in with us, and my grades have gone to hell from being abset for Wizard. 
So I was feeling pretty crappy.
Halloween wasn't all it's cracked up to be either. 
Lizzy and Addie and I trekked like 2 miles to Nolan's house, got hit on several times, trekked 2 miles back, met up with EVERYONE else, counted our candy and went home. I still haven't really dealt with the fact that they are gone. I still haven't dealt with the fact that Chip's gone. I've become very emotionally closed off, I realized.
I decided on Thursday that even though bad things were happening to me, I wasn't going to complain anymore, and I was just going to optimistic. 
It's much more fun! 
Friday, Chase taught our drama class Improv, and I discovered i'm pretty good! Yay me! 
I've sat around all weekend, doing nothing. 
But it's cool. I mean, I'm bored, but it's nice not to have to do a million things.

http://breakingnews.iol.ie/entertainment/story.asp?j=193186310&p=y93y87xy6 <--------Worse than Haylie Duff. 

I'm seriously pissed off at that. Like seriously, Broadway? Get a clue. WE LIKE BROADWAY BECAUSE THEY AREN'T THESE OVER PRODUCED, OVER POMPOUS NO TALENT STARS. Filling up shows with people no one liked in the first place is NOT going to draw in a crowd. I actuallly think it will keep people away. 

But anyways. Just got the cd from the SMA talent show. I'll upload and post the songs later, for some reason it's taking a decade. I'll even post the WORST DEFYING GRAVITY YOU'LL EVER HEAR for those of you who are brave enough to listen. If you DO listen, you will seriously be a hero to our country. I'm on my way to presidency....I heard it twice. 

Let me go to Never-Never Land.

Niki

Wow, today was...UHMHI exhausting. Wizard of Oz auditions were today. I went first. I was supposed to go 10th, but I traded with another girl, who didn't want to go first. So I belted out Bushel and a Peck, waited through 24 other auditioneers, danced the Jitterbug and Shipoopi, then sang Ding Dong the Witch is Dead. OH and the best part...*drumroll* I pretty much got called back for Glinda! *jumps up and down* Well all the people who got called back for lines got certain sheets of paper, and most of the girls my age got the same as me with the following parts on it: 

Aunt Em/Glinda (these roles will be played by the same person. hopefully ME)
Uncle Henry (Not counting too much on this one.)
Almira Gulch/Wicked Witch (Or this one. My mom says I can cackle but I seriously disagree.)
Dorothy (I'm too old. and...BLEGH.)
Scarecrow (My back-up, if I'm not cast as Glinda.) 

Anyhoo...I also went with Chels and Addie to John Tucker Must Die. I basically loved it. It was cute, it was funny, I LOVE Sophia Bush, and Jesse Metcalfe is the hot gardener from Desperate Housewives who I would tap in a HEARTBEAT. But seriously, now I really want to get my heart broken by a really popular guy, and then destroy him. Even if it does end up that all the male teachers at my school start wearing thongs. 

It would be so worth it. 

xox
Niki

So we're doing "Shipoopi" again, and I get to twirl with him again! *SQUEE* I'm pathetic. *sits in corner labeled 'Ashamed Corner'* I haven't told Car that I like him yet, cause...I have no idea why. Never the right time, I'm afriad she'll kill me or cry, etc. I think she might know though, cause we're partners for...hmm...everything, and she kind of does these weird glances at us, like, "whoa, what's going on there, eh?" I just want to shout, "NOTHING EXCEPT I AM COMPLETELY AND MADLY IN LOVE WITH THIS BOY." Then I will be embarassed and run away. That would suck. *crosses out plan A*

 I didn't make the Advanced Dance part in 76 Trombones. Ah well, c'est la vie. Me and Car will be losers together. Actually, we want to do the boy dance, but...we lack the body parts required to be male, so I don't see that in our immediate future. 

Also I learned today that Shipoopi requires two spins, which makes me crash and fall and die, so we only do one cause...well we're the beautiful people. He's beautiful, I'm beautiful, we deserve each other! 

Oh, and to the real news in my life/thorn in my side: My school is retarded. They fucked up my schedule and I am pissed off! Grrrrrr. I needed an Earlybird so I could take Drama, Choir, AND Spanish, and the only thing I requested offered as an Early bird was English 3-4, which I totally didn't even request! So I had to give up block, AND I still had to have 4th hour lunch. My plan: to try and get into Show Choir. Although I auditioned and didn't make it (as Lex so generously reminded me WHILE SHE POURED SALT INTO MY OPEN WOUND) we are getting a new teacher, and although my sight reading isn't that great, I got the pipes baby! But, I kind of don't want to give up 4th hour lunch cause my LOVERRRR has it. and since Curly got 4th hour too, they are the only two I know who gots it and we can sit together and I secretly work my way into his heart. *cackles* 

I'm Lucy in Happiness! I orginally wanted Sally, but only two girls are Lucy (Me and my fellow soprano) and two girls are Linus, and the rest are Sally, so it's a good thing. I'm special. And my darling Adelaide and I are alter egos, swear on my left pinky. We share everything, it's crazy. We always get the same part, we're always together, etc. She's a bushel of fun though. A WHOLE BUSHEL.

Tommorow's the benefit practice! I'm so happy Nolan asked me to perform. Emi and I will sing "For Good" and wow the entire town. Plus it's for a good cause, and next to Jessica, we'll be the best ones there, so I've heard. Thursday's the show. I'm not even nervous! Usually I am, but not this time, sucka!

xox and best wishes,

Niki

RENT
1. The first character I first fell in love with: Roger
2. The character I never expected to love as much as I do now: Maureen
3. The character everyone else loves that I don't: Squeegee Man
4. The character I love that everyone else hates: Uhm...Roger? (Who does everyone hate?)
5. The character I used to love but don't any longer: Angel
6. The character I would shag anytime: Collins!
7. The character I'd want to be like: Maureen
8. The character I'd slap: Mimi
9. A pairing that I love: Mark/Maureen
10. A pairing that I despise: Mark/Roger

Wicked
1. The first character I first fell in love with: Glinda
2. The character I never expected to love as much as I do now: Elphaba
3. The character everyone else loves that I don't: The Wizard
4. The character I love that everyone else hates: Madame Morrible? 
5. The character I used to love but don't any longer: Boq
6. The character I would shag anytime: FiYERO
7. The character I'd want to be like: Glinda
8. The character I'd slap: Nessa
9. A pairing that I love: Fiyero/Elphaba
10. A pairing that I despise: Elphaba/Glinda (Gross, no way!)

Okay, so am I a bad person? Probably.  There's this guy...whom I was paired with for like every camp dance and he's so sweet! 

Basically when I first met him, I was like, "Okay, wow, gorgeous hot stuff." And it was a shallow little crush. Then I found out my friend liked him and I was like, "whoa, i'll back off." But I've always had this kind of dormant thing for him. And now...my friend hasn't been here all week, and I've been around him all the time, and I keep getting that great look of his, you know the kind that can make you melt? And, since I know he doesn't really like my friend, it kind of makes me happy, and believe I have a chance, even though she's already like, picked out the names for their kids! 

I sound like such a gushy romantic, but I really feel something deep about him. Sadly, I COULD never do anything about it, (if anything happened) because it would kill her. Her best friend already went out with him for like a year, I couldn't put her through that.  Not that I expect anything to happen...I just wish it could, and uhm, she could be okay with it. I'm a terrible person! GRRRRRRRRRRRR.

xox and best wishes,

NIki

So my birthday was, in a word, awesome! We went to Phoenix on Sunday to see Beauty and the Beast, which was a VERY good show. I swear, this regional theatre is truly splendid. It was great cast, a great show...it was just great! So after the show, we all went back to our hotel (we decided to stay in Phoenix overnight, just cause it would be more fun) and chilled and slept and all that. Then we woke up like haneously early, got some breakfast, went swimming, got out abrubtly when we discovered a tampon in the pool (Oh my god, it was so disgusting!!!!!) and drove home, watching High School Musical. Then we stopped at T.G.I. Fridays for some yummy lunch and free ice cream! Then the rest of the way home, and we all died of exhaustion (I have no clue why either. We were just all dead.) And hung out until present time. 

Now I personally think I am the best gift reciever in my family. My sister opens a present, looks at it, tosses it aside, muttering 'thanks' and opens another one. My nephew David is the same way. Now I open a present, study it, and genuinely thank whomever the giver was, and I love the present. I spend time on each one, and it annoyed my nephews and niece profoundly. "Open another one, Niki!" They would cry as soon as I opened it. It was extremely annoying, because I like to enjoy my presents, rather than tear through them all, you know? So, the list of what I got:

[x] Without You-A Memoir of love, loss, and the musical RENT. written by Anthony Rapp (possibly my favorite present. I was dying for this.)

[x] A Glinda the Good Witch purse (Now this is one of those Wizard of Oz extremely expensive retro purses that I couldn't afford myself. I was also dying for this.)

[x] A Wizard of Oz coffee mug (I am an avid coffee drinker, and we collect really fun coffee mugs)

[x] An ipod shuffle (An ipod of any kind would've been fine for me, so this was a huge thrill!)

[x] Cabaret DVD (I have been yearning to see this movie since I discovered musicals. But for some reason, I never have, but now I own it!) 

[x] Broadway's Lost Treasures Volume 3: The Best of the Tony Awards (Some great performances that I long to see are on here.)

[x] Candide DVD (The one with Kristin Chenoweth and Patti LuPone. I can't WAIT to watch this.)

[x] You're A Good Man Charlie Brown-1999 Revival (Cheno and Rappy!! Hoo rah!)

[x] Sibling Relvery-Liz and Anne Callaway (Liz was the singing voice of Anastasia, and I just adored her voice. This cd is her and sister singing together, and apparently her sister is this great jazz singer, and Liz has got a soprano, so I just had to have it.)

[x] Clothing (A Marilyn Monroe t-shirt, a tank, a tinkerbell shirt, a jean skirt, and a pair of jeans.) 

[x] a gift card (I love the freedom =D)

[x] A teddy bear from cafepress (my friend emi made this for me. He's wearing a little t-shirt with a picture of Ady and Lenny, and Cybele is supposed to be there, but she put my face over hers and it's awesome!!!)

I've been back for a long time, and i'm finally updating. I don't want to explain about California, it's just not worth it. I hate being dragged into their little mindgames and pathetic drama. Sometimes, people need to realize they graduated Jr. High for a reason. 

*headdesk*

On a cheery-er note, my birthday is on Monday, and to celebrate, i'm going to see Beauty and the Beast in Scottsdale on Sunday. It's just going to be me, my parents, two of my sisters, and 3 of my niece/nephews. The one thing that sucks about having moved, is that, if I were to have a friends party, there would only be about 2 or 3 people i would truly want there. 

xox
Niki

Well, I'm leaving tommorow. "Before 8" were my dad's words. All I'm thinking: Starbucks. I'm actually really excited to go, much more than I anticipated. I can't wait to see how everyone's changed, although I'm sort of afriad. Obviously we've all changed; last year was 8th grade and we entered high school. I know I've changed. First off I'm skinny, I've gotten much better at singing and acting, and I'm now COMPLETELY obsessed with Broadway. Apparently, Nicole is emo, which I'm having a hard time believing, and Rachel is even more emo (not a surprise), and Sarah doesn't seem to be different. But she has side-swept bangs, I've heard. I mean, we're going to do a lot of fun stuff, and I'll get to reconnect with everyone, if I still do connect with them. Plus Great America, The Boardwalk, Dancing on the Avenue, Oakridge, swimming at Nicole's condo...its going to be good. Also I get to see Seussical! Expand my theatre horizons. It was either that or Oklahoma, so...I could've seen Hairspray, but no one would go with me, so I was stuck. =( 

xox
NIki